Different feelings

Recently I feel confused about
 my feelings toward two guys.

I don't know what is my feelings towards them

some times I felt loved or in love

but I'm sure that it is just a lust feelings.

I didn't put much hope in this 

because i know it won't happen 

both of them have different personality

different people

but both of them is a dancer.

that makes me fall in loved??

Maybe!

I think I'm a person that fall in love 

or like someone easily

or easily influence by someone's action.

my most weakness towards men

 or any guy is eye contact.

especially guys that I admire or I like

I really hate eye contact.

It crack my nerves on.

and 

 ter-touching here and there.

even accidently ter-touch i will feel uncomfortable

I don know how to describe.

its just that I had my own reflection

 that will avoid ter-touch.

I just hope everything will be find

and hope that my first love will be the 

one that i'll be together forever :D

God Bless.