Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Real Friends

I don't know where to start anyway what are friends for? Why are they in our life? Why told them everything  or secrets instead of parents? Friends are just part of our life's. If we have no friends, we have nothing to share, nothing to gossip, no one will defend you, no one will care about your existence. 

I have a lot of BFF. Since from primary to high school to college. Different level of school has different level of people. LOL hahahahaha You find them with a lot of personality. It was kinda fun. And as we grow up we know which one is the best! And my BFF have been narrow down a lot, I mean A LOT. 

Oh actually I wanted to rant about one particular BFF that gone missing for years. Yup 1 FUCKING YEARS!! WHERE ART THOU?? hahahahaha Okay basically not that serious since you DID update yourself with picture. I wrote you like fucking long paragraph of essay of message and you just reply me 'wait i'll back soon' . LIKE WTF!!

I'm so pissing off cause you didn't tell me everything I've wanted to hear. And you know that I notice something which you should just fucking tell me. And I've been waiting for the stories you've been hiding from me for at least 1 year and still counting. LOL

I AM FUCKING WORRIED if anything happen to you. I AM WORRIED that something bad might happen. I AM WORRIED because you didn't talk to me at all. I AM WORRIED AND I REALLY CRIED WHEN YOU SAY YOU GO OVERSEAS STUDY AND DIDN'T TELL ME THAT. FUCK YOU BITCH! But I still treasure you. KTHXBAI.

P/S: Sorry for the ranting post again, which I don't care at all, my blog anyway. And so sorry about the vulgarities. I.J.U.S.T.C.A.N.T.H.E.L.P.I.T. I hope you see this FRIES. ♥

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless

Monday, June 17, 2013

We All Die

Lately, I've been thinking a lot lately. So much of thinking. Maybe because I can't online due to my laptop crash. Now I finally have the time to blog in my office. :P Thinking too much as usual and it sucks and weather these days were crazy shit. SO FREAKING HOT EVEN NIGHT TIME. 

Just so you know, lately I've been thinking about death. Okay not to creep you guys its just a thought in my head when I'm getting old. No suicide attempts or anything that harm myself okay, just a thought. Had a few conversation with my parents lately and suddenly death conversation comes up. 

Cause you'll know when we get older we'll eventually die. So my mom thinks that instead of bury her in the ground she wanted me to throw her ash into the ocean. We all have a realistic thinking. When we die, we need a ground to place the coffin (for Christian, I don't know about other religious) but it cost a lot and mom said, even if we really place it in the ground doesn't mean that your next generation will came and visit the grave, all you have to do is remembering me.

I was kinda sad when we talk about death but that's life and its true what my mom told me. And my cousin's grandpa just passed away on few days ago due to cancer. We didn't tell my cousin since she's having exam soon. So its best to keep secret first so she won't be distracted by her exam. Even reality hits so hard when we're going to die. 

So guys, live your life to the fullest. Don't regret anything. You don't know what will happen.

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Step By Step

In life nothing goes for short cut. We take things step by step. Cause we never know what will happen. Some took days, some took months, some took years to be accomplish.

Each step we're going is different. Some were fighting for their life, some were working hard to achieve their goal, some still searching for what they wanted in their life, some were going on a parenthood life, so many characters, personalities, dream, future, people, life.

What would be yours? Have you ever think that the path you're going seems different or you don't like the path you're going now? I've been feeling that as well. It somehow take too slow to reach my dream even tho I'm taking it step by step. All I ever think of is that if I'm going to accomplish my dream will I be happy? Will I feel satisfied? Will I own the universe? I don't know cause I haven't reach that yet.

When will I reach my goal? my dream? Will it be too late if I achieved it after 30 years old? 40 years old? or even 50 years old? Won't it be too late for that? When things get too slow it will definitely drag up to many years, when reality is the one that drags you down hard. So hard that you stay at the same pace for so many years.

How to achieve your dream your goal? Every one says just do it, go for change, you can do it, just change it. What if it leads to failure that will never let us rise again? What if it really brings to success? What are you going to next? Continue the dream or search for new dream? or going back to the place where you belong? or just don't take the step at all?

Have you even think of the consequences? That may lead to different disadvantage for your health, mental or physically? Or we may eventually brings to benefits to others and ourselves. I don't know what will happen to me.

I chose the path I'm going but Jesus leads the path we're going. It maybe difficult, it maybe easy, it maybe uncertain. There are so much possibilities that is going to happen, we just don't know what and when will it happen.

All I know is that I'm choosing travelling to be in my list. Earn money and travel every year. That's my dream now. I don't want to take big risk in changing my path even tho I wanted. Its just unbearable, my mind can't take it. I have my own limit. But I still wanted to try. Maybe it will take 10 years or 20 years to achieve it. I'm taking it slow, very slow, slower than snails.

What about you all?? Have you ever had this kind of thoughts? Do let me know, I wanted to know more stories from my reader! Cause you know, different people has different thoughts.

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

June 2013

Holla people! Not going to rant today WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE!! HAHAHA So its June already! Like so fast time passed by! I still have a fresh memories of CNY  lol Another new month to go! Can't wait for August and October! 

Back on work yesterday, kinda weird cause I'm so productive. Seriously, never been so productive before maybe because I have work to do, so I didn't laze around and I make use of my time in office. Can't blog these day too much work but still manage to play games in the same time. I'm so pro lol.

Lately our office is hiring QS, Site Supervisor, and Draftman. So many fresh graduate apply for QS, what is QS anyway? I didn't even want to look up in Google. LOL. Cause we got few big project so its going to be very busy and it requires a lot of employee to work with. So I'm hoping to get more colleague! My office is too boring. lol

Oh I did a short ranting post what I did for 3 days of holiday in Sandakan. 3 Days 2 night You guys can look into it. No picture btw. I posted on the new blog since its also part of the trip I'm going. So read it lah. hahaha

Oh last thing I wanted to rant about is I'M GETTING OLD!!!! DAFUQ!! How can I look so old now? I'm only 21 years old. Photoshop works for photo but not in real life. LOL. Taking good care of my skin now! Asking for my friends to introduce me some skin care!

If you girls have any good skin care product (mostly for face with lotsa acne and oily face) you're using now please comment some of the brand below in the comment box! Appreciate it! Thanks ♥☺

Till then,
Cheers and God Bless