what should i do?

everything was fine yesterday..but then

NOW!!

it became worst...

it suppose to be 1 pair of boys n 1 pair of girls

in the end they we decided to change it into

2 pair of couple

n i hate my partner..

hate him soo much i'll just telan n accepted him as my partner

what to do???

n my friends partner also don want to play that role

n i hav to beg my assistants to replace him..

n again my assistant refuse to do it..

but he'll thing of it..hopefully my assistant can replace liam lah..

now i really don care n just act on it then WE'RE FINISH!!

n i need to arrange what should they wear n all the equipment we should ready

n tcher ask us to bring torchlight..for wat lah!!??

weird lah n whr i get fake flowers n basket to them??

n i need to arrange for the transport lagi if we really stay back

n i need to hand in our report lagi n i didn even start doing it lagi

n got a lot of homework lagi..

n songs for the cheer i wont do it anyway..i have no idea at all..

then what should i do knw?? start frm whr 1st??? haih!!

what a day!

is it that i'm too free or wat..

everyday came back from school its just INTERNET!!

internet internet internet n internet

all the time...its like i cant get out from it..but owh well

just forget it...

haihhhhhhh

i'm really desperated to hav a dslr actually

but now my pasion on it even getting higher n higher...

but when do i get it??

when??

time pass very fast..so i really hope that i get it this year..
i really want it sooooo much..hmmmm

today at school was ok..untill we start our practise..

haihhhh..if i'm not the leader i wouldn't hav involove a lot of things

i could do wat i want all the time

but then it feels so good to hav that position

coz u can meet a lot of frens n learn more things that we never learn b4

so its good n challenging exactly...

in our life learning never stop unless u stop urself frm learning it

so hopefully i can get dslr b4 i graduated or some activities has became a past

n hopefully that 2mr its going to be a easy day for me to start a new day

especially to handle my classmates problem n my assignment problem

Goodluck n God Bless Us All!!!!!

memories..

haih..max max max..

miss u babe...miss everything that we do in school....
when u merajuk i pujuk u...
when i'm crying u try to make me laugh...
when we gossip we do stupid action....

remembered when we 1st meet each other...
thats the most weird thing i said to myself when i 1st saw u in form three..
me : (in my mind) hmmm..who is she?? never saw her b4...want to introduced to her?? aiks napa bha budak nie buka zip pinafor dia nie?? weird lah..les kah dia?? hahahahahahaha XD

max this is what i think bout when i 1st meet u in form3
hahahaha..budu kan?? then we slowly became more n more friend after we masuk form4
thats when we start to make stuoid action n i was like super duper highper active that time
remember kah?? n that time also we create a lot of stupid animals name for all the boys that we like kan!!??
hahaha budu this...miss those time...
n that time u start to like orang tinggi n i like babi!!! haahahahahahaha
stupid owh kita dulu..apa bha kita fikir time tu ah!! MAX

then times slowly flew through us..n we had already finish our SPM now!!!
n i can still felt the warm n friendly smile from u max!!
the day when both of us really hugs tightly on the last day of our SPM!!
n u walk away with our memories of tears...
hmmmm..i really miss those days when we spend our friendship for 3years...
it will never fade max it will never fade...

p/s ; MAX I HEART U!!! alll the best especially uuuuuu n meeeee!!!

its on the proses

everything was fine now..

especially our practise time...but still very the freaking cacat lah

no voice at all...but better than last time..

last time was such a shit man..

punya main bida boys punya sound..haha XD

ok ok lah

haih...it seems that nothing to watch anymore (boys)

but still want to find him during recess n pulang time

but didn manage to find or saw at least one of them

i'm so sad this..but i'm still happy that i'm not liking anyone

its hard to forget someone when i really in love with someone..

but its nice to hav a feeling of falling in love..

its undescripable..haha XD

but then i wont think to much bout it lah..

coz i hav lots of work coming on n thr..

projek, test n assignment n presentation is getting mor n more now

i hav to concentrate on it 1st b4 i enjoy more of it...

school

today at school was quite ok lah

yek ling n me r trying to fight for an iphone during classes

actually is not fight lah..just wanna play the games only

raymond is like sooo freaking kaya..wat also got

especially all gadgets that i like the most

CANON EOS 500D n APPLE IPHONE...

gahhhhhhhhh!!!

makes me even more n more n more jelez of him..hahaha

coz all the things that i want always other ppl has it 1st...

y lah my parents not rich..haha XD

continue story at school...

it seems that now our progress on prctising our singing is quite good now

but i don knw whether they really got attend or not in the 1st break

hope they stay at class especially the boys lah...

we still have 1 week to go b4 our performance leh..

freaking scary tuu if we didn prepare enough..

but i really want to sing in a partner lah

i even ask sean bout singing with me but tidak payah lah

i don evan want to think bout him..n i try to ignor him when he try to smile with me

hahaha..i'm soo evil hate to saw his face now...

bikin panas jak..XD

anyways....i'm going to ALL SAINTS school tomorrow

yay!!! with isabella sis..yay..

at least i got friends..but she only kawan me till 8am only

alah i want till they finish merentas desa lah..hmphh!!

nvm as long as i can met some of my friends n tchers

hahaha miss my friends sooo much...yay!!

i want to hav fun with them..=)

hope collier get 1st on merentas desa...

GO COLLIER!!!

n hope that 2mr's weather are bright n shiny..haha XD

may God Bless Us All...!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

miserable n unconditionaly day!!

haihhhh

after school was a disaster..makes me running here n thr

n talk a lot n been scold by tcher (konon)

b4 the business maths finish..or even start that class

i ask them that stay for audition

but then they say they r buzy n all stuff

ALASAN JAK!!!!!

i also canot stay also loh..do u think i want to stay kah??

 hate it also loh..but then can see jovi, sean n issac..

then i dicuss a lot with tcher..

i think i'll volunteer myself to sing with jonathan liew

if he want lah n don mind my ugly voice...=)

i find sean n he was like y she finds me!!??

i also don care lah...u not liang cai also...i find u pun bukan pasal ko!!

hahahahahaha XD

then i find cathy n ask her bout things..

in the end only 5ppl sing for the audition!!

=.=

bikin panas nie..coz everyone is like looking at us..

especially isaac...GAHHHH!!

he even smile at ME!!!

i wanna say f*** already shit liao..

at least that time i sing well but its without a microphone..haha XD

bagus...hate it got audition..but only 2minits sdh habis..n i was relieve

thx God for the time past so fast...that time only lah...

then i wait at school till 5pm like that..

its fun juga lah coz i get to see other ppl perform sikit...

n i saw jovi like...SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!

hahahahaha XD n dancing like in the pub n make it a sexy moves

love it..n i notice him watching me or mayb someone lah..i don knw

hope tomorrow i can make a decision n been approve by tcher

that i can sing with someone if i found who wants to sing with me

if max ada..i want u to sing with meeeeeee!!!

missssss u max..T.T

got a lot of things i want to share with u..

but then ur not besides me..

coz at least we can make jokes n talk bout BOYS!!!

hahahahahahha...

p/s: i knw thr's lots of problem in ur family max but keep up i knw ur a strong women..

i'll always support u when ever u need me!!

terharu kah??? XP

thinking of it

i'm still thinking of it whether i should go to the

leadership camp or not..

mayb i'm scare of my trauma coming back again...

but i hope n never hav this trauma..

if not i'll be able to do stuff that i want to..

but nevermind..

as long as thr's my frens n my family who support me its fine..

i sms 'him' today bout the leadership thing again..

i think he starts to ignor me n malas want to sms me..

its not even everyday we sms..

n when i sms its all about the schools activities mah..

but biar lah..i oso start to malas bout 'him' already...

lazy to care bout 'him' but i still want to see him..XD

budu this..haha XD

n thr's new update that is our talent night has postponed

its going to be at 7feb 2010..

n our audition its going to be at next week wed...

its really nice to hav lots of activities going here n thr

but i just wanna hav fun without stress or burden

when i think bout burden..

it remembers me of the ALL SAINTS school's songs

hahaha..i miss my old school n my friends soooo much...

till i want to go back the time..haha

but it wont..just hoping that all of them r healthy n happy always..

miss them sooo much...

n bibian is now at same class with me...

i was soo shock when she says that she wants to go thr

 n i'm like woahhh..its last minute girl u still want to go..

but eventually she didn act like anak manja..

haha thx God!!

but she seems to have a lots of fans even only in the 2nd day of school

haha..i'm jelez but i oso got fans i really see through it..

konon lah..but as long she's with me i'm not that lonely..

n my classmate r funny juga lah...but sometimes bikin panas oso..

hopee my friends r happy n healthy always..

may God Bless Us All..

p/s : i miss 5i..♥~