Confusion

I always thought that going for my passion is hard but its even harder. A lot harder and a lot of confusion going on. I'm playing this game way too safe. I always thought that I came out from my comfort zone, to tell you the truth I haven't. And now I'm in state of confusion. Even if I'm working hard on my passion it always leads to something else. Really. Sometimes it pushes me away yet I still want to go for it. Its like playing hard to get that kind of relationship thing. Now that I go for my passion I wonder if this IS my passion or NOT. 

I know that once I've change my path it will be different, my future will be different. What if I just go for my passion? What if I just go with the flow instead? What if........ So many what if. Voomei is in a state of confusion right now. Hope I can solve this soon. Bye

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290514 : Last Day of work

I can finally say I'm officially jobless for the rest of the year. lol I've been so busy with my photography business and not to mention all the photo I've took from my trip to Penang & Langkawi. Also this Sunday we had another client shoot. MY LIFE IS AWESOME! Not yet tho. Been busy organizing my timetable & to do list before I fly off to my next trip again. 

1. I can fully focus into my photography business right now. Not only that, I'm doing a lot of homework about camera, lighting, posing & etc. So much to learn. I'm happy! oh so happy!

2. Going outbound this time! KOREA is definitely my favorite place of all! Not because of Kpop its because their food is oh so delicious & not to mention their fashion & cosmetic. I'm so excited to fly off next week! 

3. Beside photography, I'm working on beauty & fashion, so I'm working out for better body figure! I don't want to make my life so miserable for not fitting into all pretty clothes. Gonna work hard on exercise & dieting. 

4. I'm no longer suffering from working on a place I hate the most. I'm free, I'm happy, I'm self conscious when working on things I like. I felt that I could work & do even better in photography. Passion will always make us improve to a better person. Striving for my dream!

5. Last day of work today was full of deep conversation. I met amazing colleague through this shit work life & they made me so happy. Of course its sad to leave them since we've become so attached and treated each other as friend instead of colleague. We will definitely meet again in the future. 

To all people out there who is struggling to go for your passion I'd say just fucking go for it. If we never try we never know what would happen to our future. Go for a change, it maybe hard, we may find a lot of excuses, we may ignore but one shall not say they live a life without trying to change & go for their own passion. We may fail or succeed BUT that's part of our life. I'm doing this because I want to change not only to pursue my dream but to look deeper in our purpose of our life. We only live once. Go for it I'd say. We are the future, we may change the future to a better place.

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To all salesman

Like hello!!!! Get the way out? Yes I'm referring to you you You YOU! Its no point selling me anything. I seriously hate sales person. Yes its great to have great sales and enjoy the benefit buying from sales person. But then what if I don't want. Can you see its so hard to reject the offer especially you meet your long lost primary friend and he started talking about insurances.

I was like 'Can you stop talking about your job, its nothing interesting!' 'And stop selling me something'. When I was thinking all of this I unconsciously skip part of the things he was saying. Its so hard to concentrate when people start selling, its like reading or study. You know what I mean? Unless I am really interested in your insurance or any other product then I don't mind listening but now no. I have no money, I'm jobless (I told him I'm still working lollllll), I'm busy setting my business. I HAVE NO TIME FOR YOUR INSURANCE TALK!!!! 

When we meet we should talk about our high school life & our times when we were young & how the others are doing right now. NOT START TALKING ABOUT YOUR SALES. OMG I need a break, I've encountered too much sales person that I really hate because I soon will become one NOO!! I'm seriously not good in socializing anyway so don't call me ever. We even exchange contact just now! OMG Please don't find me. 

Every time I've met people its like I try to avoid talking cause I don't know what to talk nor say. Its like my head trying to find stupid topic to talk about, like seriously. So hard to find topic to new people or people that we've haven't talk for so long. I like to talk when I understand them and they understand me so its great. Anyway I'm not good in socializing need to practice hard on that part. sigh. 

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Excuses

Hi! Am I doing it right or what? I just agreed to stay till end of May. This is the second time I've agreed to my boss that I'd delay a little bit longer. I am so worried that when the day come for the replacement she won't appear. I really hope she come to replace me so I could hand over everything. All the work I've been handling is really a lot. Like seriously a lot even my supervisor doesn't even know. Not to mention now I've kept forgetting things which makes my work even harder. I couldn't concentrate, I feel tired and unmotivated at all. All I do was waiting for my vacation for the day to arrive.

Also I was so excited with the trip on sat, that I've already pack my clothes except for toiletries. My mom was like are you kidding me??? Yeap I've pack my clothes. Probably going to wear the same clothes on June trip again! Recycle comfy clothes on the trip is my essential! haha You know I'm into fashion lately but I has no money to spend. Maybe I'm going to save more on this sat trip and spend a fortune on June trip. June trip is like the most expensive trip I've been to and the most excited ever!! Its a foreign country so I'm excited as fuck!!! GAHHH HOLIDAY WHY U NO COME FASTER AND SLOW DOWN WHEN I'M ALREADY ON HOLIDAY??

Where's all the time we've been doing?? Time is money people! Means more booking, more income, more vacation!!! I'm excited that this year my calender is all pack with awesome event & booking! but I need my holiday right now!!! Oh btw I'm watching a new Korean variety series called Roommate! I love Park Bom! She's awesome and funny! Go watch! Bye

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Family being mehhh

From the outside it looks like they were being supportive but deep down inside they are expecting me to fail and stop all these impossible to happen kind of job I'm pursuing. I understand that because I'm an amateur. Being jobless and doing things from scratch is really hard. All the planning is already making me really tired. Even though it was really tired but I'm happy. Even all the things didn't go accordingly I am happy with it. I think and solved it properly without abandon any of the task I'm facing. 

Unlike with my current job. I purposely abandon all the work, pretend that I forget when I'm not, delayed everything for almost a year. How awesome is that. Yeah I'm being such childish ever in my life. At least I'm getting back in track again with my current shit job, cause I don't want to give bad impression (which already have) even worst. I just hope that the person who is going to replace me doesn't back out, like really, like seriously don't back out. I want to get over with these job A.S.A.P but my mom was like stay there if that replacement doesn't want to replace my position. Obvious intention mom. 

My mom wanted me to stay there as long as possible but I couldn't, I hate it so much that the work load was purposely abandon. How could I even stay at there longer? I just couldn't do it. Now to compensate my shit behavior I'm going to clear out everything I could so that my replacement could suffer less. lol Which probably going to be easy for her as if she just went to work just like going to vacation. Oh please hurry up time!! Let me go to vacation! When its vacation time I hope the time just slow down. I'm just being bitchy sometimes. Thank for reading my shit life here. 

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